You know that moment!Jasmine Cannon-Ikurusi
That exact moment!
You play it over and over again! Rewind it! Fast forward it! It plays on repeat over and over again in your head! You cannot shake it! It cannot shake you! You are intertwined! You are imbed in the seas of LONLINESS! Starstruck by the melancholy sublime outrage! You wake up to it! You sleep with it! Day and night it torments you! It seems to derail the small sanity you have left!
Over and Over again! You wish you can take back that moment! You wish you can take back what you said or what you did! You plan and evaluate what you could have done differently. You wish and pray to take back the hands of time to rewrite the errors of your ways or stop time to grab the missed opportunity.
It doesn't matter what you say or do! Nothing will change the past! Nothing will take away the mortifying horrific incidences of yesterday! Nothing will stop the pain! What's done is done! They are gone! She is gone! He is gone!
A snap of the finger will not erase your memories of what has happened!
The question is where will you go from here?!!
What route will you take?
No more felling guilty!
No more cheap excuses for your failures!
No more depression!
Enough of the self-pity!
It does not matter what you have done! You are not alone! It doesn't matter where you have come from but where you are going ?!
Are you going to give up or give in?
Are you going to continually cry and eat away your pain? You are only derailing your calling!
WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO?
WHERE IS YOUR FAITH?
I CANNOT HEAR YOU…..
SPEAK UP OR HOLD YOUR PEACE!
WHO ARE YOU?
Do you know who is imbedded within you?
Only if they knew who you were and where you are going; they wouldn't have bothered!
Tell the issues to keep coming!
Bring on the calamities!
IT IS ONLY GOING TO MAKE ME STRONGER!
I KNOW WHO I AM!
I KNOW WHAT I AM!
I KNOW WHERE I AM GOING!
I HAVE A PURPOSE!
I HAVE A VOICE!
I KNOW WHAT GREATNESS IS IN STORE FOR ME!
I AM READY TO KEEP FIGHTING!
I am no longer afraid of fear rather I embrace it! I am not afraid! I no longer tremble at the sight of loneliness. I no longer flinch at the ZEROs in my account. I no longer mourn for the RED envelopes posted to my address!
MY CURRENT STATUS IS NOT MY IDENTITY!
MY FAILURES DO NOT DETERMINE MY SUCCESS!
I KNOW GOD LOVES ME!
HE HAS MY BACK!
NO LONGER WILL I LOOSE MY FAITH!
I SIT HERE AND WAIT!