9. Feb, 2015

2015 Baby

Is it just me or do you feel like what is the point?

What is the point of life?

What is the point of all these exams?

What is the point of killing myself with a 9-5 job?

What is the point of getting out of bed?

Have you ever got to the point in life where you are just tired?

Tired Physically, Mentally, Spiritually and Emotionally?

Sometimes it can even feel like life is just draining you and taking all of you!
Sometimes we ask ourselves what is the point of fighting?

What is the essence of holding on for something that will never be?

I know there are countless situations in my life that have nearly pushed me to the brink of death but for some reason and I do not know why nor how;
I just keep fighting through the pain and the heartbreak and pick myself up!

I decide that enough of the self pity!
Enough of mopping around feeling sorry for myself!
Enough of making excuses for my shortcomings and failures.

I decide to keep going on to see another day!
I choose to fight for my last breath!
No matter the cost!
No matter the pain!
I will push on!
I will stand in the blizzard naked!
I am not scared of the cold!
Nor timid of the scorching heat!
I have decided to live!
Stand in the light with me!

When my flesh says its all over, that my fight has ended; my spirit says you have a purpose!
My spirit says I have a voice!
My spirit man gives me strength!

The reason you cannot just seem to end your life is because your journey is far from over!
No matter how many times you take that knife to plunge out your heart!
No matter how many pills you take to block out the voices!
No matter how many scars you inscribe on your detriment!
No matter how much pain you inflict on your skin!
Nothing can stop you!
No one can stop you!
Not even you can stop you!

Once you have been called; no one can uncall you!

You have a purpose!

Your fight is not over!

This is just the beginning.

Jasmine Cannon-Ikurusi