16. Jan, 2016

It's Not Over Till Its Over

Beaten down to feel like a nonentity,
Stripped of all virtue and value,
Spat On,
Mocked,
Cursed,
Abused,
Tarnished,
Molested,
Raped,
Widowed,
Diseased,
Destroyed?

To many I am known as all things,
Mental Case,
Bipolar,
Pathologically Insane?

To the world:
I am insignificant?
A means to an end,
Terminated,
Outcast,
Black Minority,
Feminine Deformity,
Lost Cause?

No support?
No leg to stand upon?
Cursed left and right!
Abandoned to the roaring seas!
Demised by the roaring lions!
Failure!
Loser!
Pointless!

SILENCED!!

For the longest part of my existence, I had no voice because I chose to exchange my mouth piece for a mantle piece! I was the wind that bloweth to and fro with no aim nor purpose. Lost to mediocracy's reign! I was so angry at the world! Bitter for what humanity had taken from me that I continually dwelt in the past! So lost to the darkness that I could no longer find a way out!

I was broken! Wounded! Scared from the inflictions that haunted my childhood! I couldn't let go of the pain because I did not want to let go! I was so use to the pain, that abusing myself became a normality! I was consumed by my hatred! I was infatuated with my depression! Oppression was now my lord and savior!

Lets just be honest, I loved feeling sorry for myself! The victim card was now my national identity! The pain was now my fingerprint! I reeked of despair! The smell of defeat lingered in the atmosphere! You could taste the aroma of destruction around me. I was so stuck that I could not even sense time disappearing! The world was maturing while I was degrading!

All the years I missed! All the seasons that passed me by! All for what?!
What was the point of all of this?

Sometimes they say that we will pass through all sorts of trials and tribulations to make us stronger!
To become leader!
To become a catalyst for change in our society!
The voice in the wilderness!

I heard that only wounds can create warriors!
The strongest are those that will pass through the tough seasons!

However my story is far from incomplete!
Rather it has just began!

I now know in part that my story has enabled me to want to empower women!
To raise a generation that will stand up and speak up!

WELCOME TO THE INTRODUCTION OF MY NEXT PROJECT IN EASTER!
MORE DETAILS ARE TO COME IN THE FOLLOWING WEEKS!

HAVE A GOOD NIGHT!

LOVE SAPPHIRE MINISTRIES"
WWOP - WOUNDED WOMEN OBTAIN POWER

ARE SCARS DO NOT DEFINE NOR CONFINE US!
WE ARE MORE THAN OUR WOUNDS!

MzJC RTWV - Jasmine N Cannon-Ikurusi