12. Apr, 2017

WEEK 9 - SJW

This week had its own ups and downs. I was literally at my detriment yesterday, when I thought I would give up. The voices were compelling me to give in. The pressure to give in to the shadows that haunted my mind. I don't know how it happened. Everything was going great until it wasn't! I was on cloud nine! I was making pigs fly! I was changing law and order. I was doing things that mankind deem as an impossibility. I was enforcing change and reconstructing a deformed institution!

Until something happened!
I just snapped!
I can't explain it!
I cannot explain when it happened!
I cannot explain why nor how this mayhem occurred!
My laughter slowly turned to despair,
My joy created misery,
My heart once perfectly crafted now broken"

I was doing good!
I was starting to love again!
I started to see hope but most of all a future!

I could no longer amend nor suppress her!
I thought I was in control!
I thought I could do it!
Am I delusional?
Am I just plain crazy?
I can hear the voices!
They are coming!
There are nearly here!
What do I do?
Where do I run to?
I am weary!
I am so tired of running!
I thought I could do this!
I thought I was strong enough!

What do you do when the whole world turns its back on you?
What do I do when your family does not believe you nor believe in you?

Just a little advice guys, don't bottle things up! If not it will come crashing down so fast at a speed you cannot control that will obliterate everything good around you! Life will give you all sorts of sour tastes but there is a sweetness in you that will and can defeat the bitterness! Life will happen but it would not break you but make you stronger! Today decide to let it go!

YOU ARE STRONGER THAN YOUR PAIN!
YOU ARE STRONGER THAN THE HEARTBREAK!
DECIDE TO LOVE AGAIN!
LET THE PAST GO!
IT CANNOT HURT YOU NO MORE!

JASMINE N CANNON-IKURUSI