19. Apr, 2017

WEEK 10 - SJW

Stood Up

Now you guys have got to hear this. Lol before I continue, i think its time I tell you about my new discovery; no judgements please! It is called "christian connection"! I bet we have a few lifted eyebrows! I bet you guys must be thinking why; ok but before I let your mind wonder, let me tell you guys my excuses before I tell you the gossip! So basically the way my life is set up at the moment, I barely have time to myself talk less of meeting anyone. So that is what brought me to this dating site.

Yes I am only 23 but I feel like time is moving too fast. I feel like the voices in my environment are pressuring me to do something about my single hood. What is so funny, is that I love my company. I love the bubble I exist in with just me and my father. I feel so complete. I feel like nothing is missing. For the first time in a very long time I feel whole but most of all complete.

No!
No!
No, I am not single because of fear, but because of this encompassing love that makes me not long for anything else.

Life happens and there is a reason to why we are here. There is a legacy that is waiting to be birthed forth in each and everyone one of you but you must wait for your season. The fruit would only be bitter if you do not allow the fruit to rippened. So i say wait! Wait some more!

Well back to the story of the week. I had a date set up not from the app but by my best friend as my experience from the app only proved to be filled with one night stands and broken dreams. I literally was telling my best friend that I was done and needed to work on myself. However, after reviewing this person, their qualities matched everything i wanted but now i know that it is not what i needed! At first I was hesitant to speak to this person even as friends, as this person was a replica of the ex. It feels like it has been ages since i opened up. It is like life had taken so much of me that i had nothing to give. I had forgotten how to laugh. I had forgotten how to dance again. The colours that we once obscure had radiance again. I let my guard down and this person became my symbol of hope. A symbol of a future but most of all a home. For the first time in a long time, I was over the moon. I had no idea that a date that i thought the Kings orchestrated would turn from date to check mate.

Everyone who knows me, will tell you that I am basic and down to earth, and that makeup is not my specialty. However for this date, I thought i would go the extra mile by watching tutorials and study techniques. However i am learning that makeup only covers the insecurities and frailties but love accepts you flaws and all. I even went shopping for a new outfit. I was dressed and ready to hit the door when I got a text saying.

"I can't do this anymore"

DO WHAT?

I was distraught and dismayed that yet again after putting my heart out there, that I was left putting jigsaw puzzles back together again. But such is life. There will be ups and downs! There will be tears! There will be heartbreak! There will be nights or utter darkness but there is something in you that will not allow the tides of life keep you down! Sometimes in life you will prepare so much for an interview and expect that everything would be great to get a shocking rejection. You can study so hard for an exam and end up getting an average grade or worse case a fail. Life has a funny way of working sometimes. Or sometimes you give something or a project your all to get no result. Or you may have been in a relationship for 5 years to end in a sour end.

Baby life will happen but it would not break you!
Baby life will happen but your only going to stand stronger!
Baby life will happen but it would only create warriors!

When it is your time, it is your time!
Don't stop the process, as it would only purify you until you reach your golden years!
Life cannot stop you!
Heart break cannot hold you!

Get up!
Pick yourself up!

Time to change the script!

Ladies make sure you are there for our free women event next week saturday from 3-7 at the double tree hilton at Greenwich! ALL WHITE ATTIRE EVENT!
WWOP - WOUNDED WOMEN OBTAIN POWER!
WE STAND AS LEADERS!
https://www.eventbrite.co.uk/e/wwop-tickets-32906044866

JASMINE CANNON-IKURUSI